When I first started the RT, I wanted an arena where I could get stuff off of my chest. Cheaper than therapy, you know? The fear there is that most of the crud I carry around with me would bore the hell out of the average reader. How many times do you want to hear about how tired I am or how much I hate Adelphia or what’s going through my head as a new dad or dealing with a death in the family or my health or whathaveyou.
I think you’d rather read about movie quotes or Star Trek, and I know I enjoy writing that stuff a lot more. And it certainly seems like the Toybox has gradually gone in that direction over the last year. When I look back to my MBA days, every other post was about how busy and stressed I was, but lately, I prefer to go with events or themes. I almost feel like the RT is less a journal today, and more a Dave Barry column. (Boy, I wish, but you know what I mean.)
Anyway, I’m putting everyone, including myself, on notice. If I head back towards the more cathartic journal-esque type of blog, I’m sorry if I bore the hell out of you. I need the sounding board though.
So here we go:
I purposefully chose the type of life I’m living right now, and truth be told, there is no way I could be happier. I have ZERO regrets. And though I never once believed that it would be easy, I can’t believe how hard it is. Back in reality, I know I’m lucky: I have high blood pressure, not cancer. I’m a law student, not fighting in Iraq. I’m too broke for a PS3, not too broke to use my LexisNexis points on a Nintendo DS.
Back in the moment, that does little to assuage my blue funk. I out-and-out hate some of my teachers. I love the stuff I’m learning, and I KNOW I’m lucky to be here, but the inefficiency of the whole thing just gets my goat. I want to be reading about interesting stuff like constitutional arguments, but instead, I spend my ENTIRE FUCKING SUNDAY learning about where to put the FUCKING SEMI-COLON if I’m citing to a law review article.
There. Got that out. I actually do feel better.
And by the way, “Assuage my Blue Funk” would be an excellent name for a band.
2 years ago